Only nightmare’s related to my real life. Multiple and they were all related to people ghosting me, ignoring me or publicly blaming me for something I didn’t do. I always woke up all sweaty, as in my dreams I tried everything to befriend people.

I tried to convince them, be happy and friendly but at the end they all left me alone or made me feel like a piece of shit. People were running away from me and me chasing them made no difference. Explaining myself for something I didn’t even do, didn’t interest anyone. Also saying nice things was twisted around to make me feel bad.

Often I spend the rest of the dream trying to figure out what I did wrong. Often I saw myself as young child, crying, with no parents I could go to and ask for help. Often the dream turned all narrow, like walls left and right, so I couldn’t simply take a different route or escape.

They were pretty scary, because I’m used to have, like half of my dreams be, lucid dreams. At least those I remember, always give me some sort of control. Often when I want to avoid a situation in them and I try really hard, I can escape by flight or something else. But those… No escape. Made me skip work for two days.