Them: “You don’t have anything to be depressed about!”
Me: “I know”
Them: “So why aren’t you happy?”
Me: “Because that’s not how it works!”

I’ve been in therapy for so long, I basically understand it well enough intellectually to be able to help others.

I know exactly how it’s supposed to help me, but deriving actual benefit or being able to apply the techniques to myself has never been the slightest possibility.

Over thinking and imagining impossible scenarios and losing all my mood all the time. Otherwise I am a logical person.

a lot makes sense when the psychosis hits

I am in a state of perpetual argument with my self.