it’s good that you are trying to figure it out. you should probably get on the list for some mental health care and do an intake; they can give you a psychological exam and can give you a diagnosis and that should give you a solid base to work from.
none of us can judge your mental soundness based off a few sentences.
I think you should talk to a professional. That’s what they’re there for.
Yes I really should. Perhaps a professional would clarify whether I’m perceiving reality correctly – that is, after having posted on incels.is, a fed honeypot forum, I came under intrusive monitoring and was placed on a watchlist for 1st amendment protected speech and whether feds trail me online to accuse me of being schizo whenever I make these claims. A professional could indeed help me make sense of these things but currently I am uninsured and have no choice but to seek the advice of the masses.
